Life, Love and the Everyday

Psalms 138:8 The Lord will fulfil his purpose for me, your love O Lord endures forever - do not abandon the works of your hands. _________________________________________________________________________________ Saying Yes to God is the best thing I have ever done. Sounds like a typical Jesus freak cliché, I know. But as you read this blog I hope you fully understand why I live for Christ. As a five year old child I was diagnosed with Audio-Processing, a mild form of Autism. The doctor shook his head sadly and told my Mum point-blanc that I would never amount to much in life, that I would never gain maturity, make my own choices, have a career, have a husband or family. I  don't know how much my Mum's heart broke at that moment, but I know now that she was angry enough to make sure that I broke out of that box that the doctor put me in. Twenty years later, I have matured, it may take me a few moments but I can process things, I have a calling on my life ...

I have been really blessed with my friendships, past and present, even though some of them had to come to an end. There is a scripture in the Bible which refers to friendship "Surely as iron sharpens iron, so does a good friend." Friends like that are truly a treasure, because they love you enough to tell you the truth, friends who don't are quite the opposite. Lately I have been hanging out a lot with my friend Chantelle, she is absolutely adorable, blue eyes with a quick smile and so much fun to be around! She totally gets why animated Disney guys are hot, so she understands my school girl crush on General Cheng from Mulan! She also has a crush on Prince Philip from Sleeping Beauty! We make the most hysterical of friends because furniture in department stores have become a stage for D&M's. A couple of weeks ago a bemused clerk asked us if we needed any help (we were sitting face to face on a couple of girlie beds) and Chantelle blurted out. "We're fi...

LIFE has been absolute bonkers for the past week! Five solid days of work which will probably make me weep with joy when I see the numbers in my bank account! Work itself was pretty awesome, words cannot say how much I love the kids I work with - seriously, if you ever want to get things into perspective just ask a kid! To wind down from the work week, *A and I walked down to the pub with my friend Mads and after one cocktail both of us mustered the courage to submit three songs to sing together. Mads and I belted out the lyrics to "We're All Gonna Die Someday" by Kasey Chambers, "Keep Yours Hands To Yourself" by Georgia Satellites and then A* and I sang our first duet together, "Barbie Girl" by Aqua. It's all on video but I have been forbidden to share! *A went solo and sang Vanilla Ice, its FRICKIN SMOKIN' HOT in red capital letters! There was this really gorgeous, forty-something year old brunette who was shaking her butt in his direct...

Life: Ever since I have made peace with deciding between my writing and childcare, things have kind of picked up a little bit. That could also be because I have been working out at the gym more this past week. My .P.T has told me no bread, no chocolate, no lollies for eight weeks! What do I do a week and a half in? Well, that shot to hell pretty fast! Got tipsy on Saturday night at the PigN'Whistle in Brunswick Street at a friends birthday party, apparently I was drunk but I rigidly maintain that I was just a little "happier" than normal!  I know in my earlier posts this year I portrayed myself as somebody a little bit uptight, so...SURPRISE! Love: Because A. is the big 3.0 and I am twenty-five, we are being bombarded with well-meaning folks asking us when we are going to "put on a ring on it", Beyoncé's "Single Ladies" has a lot to answer for! I have to say though, I am kind of subconsciously thinking along those lines too if belting out Ge...

"Life holds few distinctions, my dear. But I think we may safely boast that here sit two of the silliest girls in England." - Mr. Bennett, Pride & Prejudice. Mr. Bennett was wrong, life holds distinctions every other day - and silly girls don't just exist in England. Out of all the Bennett girls in Pride & Prejudice, I can relate to Lydia the best. She was a hard-core dreamer and romantic, just like I was at fifteen. That didn't change - until today when something just clicked in my brain; it sounded like one of those game show buzzers and I felt the ringing vibration in my ears like I do whenever I have a great idea or revelation. In this particular case it was a revelation as clear as a Swarvoski crystal. Dreaming is awesome but it can be disheartening when you are in your head so much that you cannot reconcile dreams with reality. And maybe that is why I feel like I am on the rat-wheel, why I felt torn between my passion and my dream....

I may seem happy-go-lucky and usually, I am. I have goals, visions and dreams about the kind of person I want to be - which is brave, strong, competent and confident, successful and happy. I know that I am strong and happy. But the rest of my "I want to be..." list is still a work in progress. Right now I feel like I am running on a rat wheel which keeps me running faster and faster, I don't know to bring that rat wheel down to a more manageable speed, or if I am running hard enough to keep the rat wheel turning. I'll be honest with you, sometimes it feels like I am not really getting anywhere at all. I know that sounds pathetically melodramatic, I have been accused of being a drama queen more than once. I kind of have this fear that things will stay the same - and I know they will, if I don't play my part to change them. I don't want to stay on the Rat Wheel anymore, I want to run along the path that I created for myself, brick by brick. And I know what ...

LIFE... As I was having an inner-hissy fit this afternoon and was considering putting it up on FACEBOOK - something like: "Hello Hormones! I have not seen you in ages! Why did I want to grow up so bad?!" - I realised that there is a big difference between Getting Older and Growing Up. Getting Older is pretty obvious - growth spurt, hair growth in alarming places - I look like a pin-up for the dark side of puberty right now and I am twenty five for goodness sake! Then there is Growing Up - which is more of an internal change; whether its having more patience, handling tricky situations with more thought and discernment, knowing that what you do or don't do today affects you, the people you love, your tomorrow, foreseeable future and the future. I like to think I have grown up - although I guess other people would know better! And no - in case you are wondering I did not post that little rant on FACEBOOK, I am trying to keep my sharing to a minimum. Yes, Growing Up is...