Life, Love and the Everyday

I like myself a lot more these days, in fact - I love myself.                             I love myself in a way that's like 'Wow, this is me. I like it.'  I have more strength to push on and have confidence. It's amazing what happens when you chase people who chase you, who want to genuinely be in your life and YOU decide that you are worth more, YOU deserve more. Six months ago I would have thought. "I'm good but I'm not that good." I did not value what I had to offer, I let people treat me how they wanted and that is on me. However, in saying that - when people who say they love you; then make you feel like an outsider, you realise that they are taking up sitting space in your life. The people who you can trust to be there are the ones who make you smile just by calling, they make you laugh at how funny life can be and they are there for you when you've had a shit day. Those are the people, I learnt, that I needed to make priority

Friendship is a subject that is really close to my heart. Last year was challenging for me, although the wedding was successful the preparation for it was grating on my emotional and mental health. During this time I learnt that trying to sustain healthy relationships with toxic people was like fire-twirling while walking along a tight-rope. Do-able but a constant strain on time and energy better suited elsewhere. I was afraid of making new friends. Self conscious and scared of making the same mistakes but also being a target of relational aggression that had taken its toll on my self-esteem and confidence.  I was afraid of opening my heart and sharing my experiences with others with the exception of a select few, and it was those few people that taught me so much about what true friendship is. 1) A true friend is someone who tells you the truth  Sometimes we don't want to hear about where we are going wrong but honesty given in a kind, respectful way doesn't make

Sometimes uncertainty weighs on my mind like a dark cloud, but one thing I do know for certain is that uncertain times and seasons do not last. If I keep my chin up and work hard, that dark cloud will pass over, I do feel overwhelmed sometimes, in those moments I wish I knew more than what I know. Staying positive in the face of the unknown sometimes can be wearing on the heart, but I know that life presents these opportunities to build character and growth. Over time I have learnt that when a cloud of uncertainty passes over, it's important to hold onto the things in life that are certain, to not lose sight of what is in our power. Seasons of plenty and poor ebb and flow, there will be days of joy and sorrow. There may be crying today and happiness tomorrow. Sometimes even on a day of sadness you can find a small pocket of happiness, something to be grateful for. There are four things that I can always have in my power: 1) My attitude. I may have a bad moment but I do every