Life, Love and the Everyday

LIFE Lately I have felt very happy and excited about what life will roll out in the next ten months and beyond. I was afraid to allow myself to be too happy, just in case something bad happened. What I have learnt is that I cannot live like that. It's like living half-heartedly in the moment. So I'll be happy when I'm happy, I'll be sad when I'm sad. Yet what I find to content myself in either is the way I see things. For instance, on Saturday I had to journey to the Gold Coast for a First Aid and CPR course where I caught five buses and two trains - I had never been on that much transport in my life!  I'd taken a couple of wrong turns and got myself lost at Southport. I had a lot of time to think about the wrong turns that had happened in my life - especially the ones from the past three years and even before that. In 2006, the year I graduated from high school - Queensland brought in a new law that required people under the age of 25 to do 100 hours of

LIFE Some years ago I watched "The Secret", a documentry on the Law Of Attraction after Mum practically chained me to the couch to watch it. She was right when she said I'd love it! Last week I realized that I needed a refresher - so I watched the first twenty minutes and suddenly had a yen to clean my desk. During that time these words came to mind and fell off my tongue. Ï choose to surround myself with beauty.  And I repeated it over and over again. For the past four days I have noticed that I feel calmer, even in the face of stressful situations and when unexpected things happen - I have found that I have been able to do one of two things; Laugh or Move On. Lately I have felt like I should be someone else, doing something else with her life. And that is mostly on days when I speak or think negatively - and usually that 'something else' with my life is writing up a storm on my lap-top. At the moment I am currently wrapping my head around the idea that as

LIFE I am at a point in my life where I am content. I have a man to kiss hello every morning, I have a job where I am valued (even though most of the time I feel like I'm going crazy) and in between that I'm Netflixing, Pinteresting and cheating myself out of a trim waist-line. I have been writing in a food diary the past fortnight and today I got marked on my food choices for the past week. 13/35. And those scales are reading 98.3. I really don't know what to say, except that the horns keep the halo from getting lopsided! Today I feel pretty happy, I submitted my Care For Babies module after a good three months. Slowly but surely, I got there. But my aim this year is to be faster to understand the content and what is required of me sooner. Something I have learnt that works for me to study is going onto youtube and listening to waterfalls or heavy rain - it filters out the white noise in my head and the sound of it makes me relax and focus solely on what is in front