Life, Love and the Everyday

I was one of those girls who wanted to find true love but did not know what it looked like.  Finally, when I least expected it and wasn't actively searching - God sent me a wonderful man who has made me happy every day for the past three years.  Before my own Happily Never Ending, through media and romance novels, I had a very distorted view on what true love was like. The guys in the movies, hottest television shows and books are always the typical cliche of wash-board abs with animalistic sex appeal. In reality, these Alpa-Men would drive us crazy and we would think they are sexist and over-the-top - but in books and movies, anyone can be compromising! Especially when the leading man is any of these: - Smoldering Hot - An Honorable Gentleman with Dishonorable Intentions   -Hearts, Flowers and Chocolate - Great in the sack  - Spoils the leading lady ridiculously even though she protests there is no need... - He never, ever farts... The downside of this Alpa-

This past week I have been reminded that being a Christian does not give me immunity against unemployment, unpaid bills and $600.00 worth of debt. Although I have chosen to follow Christ, I am first and foremost a human-being with struggles like everyone else. I have been like the Israelites, while in Egypt desperate for rescue and after being rescued, being anxious about what the future holds and where I will settle.  Although I have been shown time and time again God's grace and love, I tend to forget that when in a state of frustration and anxiety.  Being living proof that there is a God is the daily devotional of every Christian. Having that responsibility brings a lot of joy, but it is not without grief as well. Ecclesiastes 1:12-13 "I the Preacher have been king over Israel in Jerusalem. And I applied my heart to seek and to search out by wisdom all that is done under heaven. It is an unhappy business that God has given the children of man to be busy with."

LIFE It is 12:55pm on Friday and I am already exhausted because I have been up since 5:30am, riding buses since 6:30am zig-zagging across the southern suburbs and Logan. I am going to be honest, today I am not my usual happy-go-lucky self. Infact, I am the opposite. This past week has been a big faith test that I feel like I have been failing miserably. I have had a snarky, evil voice in my mind telling me that I should re-think the Christian thing and tell me that God doesn't really care about me. I feel yuck. Like this poisonous, thick sludge has just crept into my body is dragging me down with my thoughts. So now that I have said that, I'm going to say something else. I'm not going to let this beat me. I'm going go to bed tonight, say thanks to God and wake up to the blessings that tomorrow will bring. LOVE A. is AMAZING, STRONG, BEAUTIFUL. Everything I have ever wanted but never thought I'd get. I can't picture my life without him in it. He